so i'm off to uni in like, 18 days. i shouldn't say "i'm off" i'm not even moving into halls or anything, only taking a half hour train ride followed by a shuttle bus. considering i had my doubts about edge hill i'm pretty excited about starting my course. definitely need to start writing again, get some creative juices flowing, let my nerd side reek havoc once again. talking to people online that'r going to the same uni and that are on my course has definitely taken the dge off the whole thing, i'm more relaxed then i previously was, i'd hate to not get on with people on the first day, awkward!
can't wait until i get paid this time next week, i am as poor as can be right now, i hate having to work out how much money i need for stuff. next week also means i get to see Alex, i've missed her a stupid amount, she's been "down under" for god knows how long and it's marvellous she's actually come home! i can't wait to listen to all the stories she has to tell me whilst drinking cheeap cocktails :) need to go make some food and sort out a list of stuff i need in 18 days time.
i clicked on a link Danni posted on Facey the other day, Don't Judge My Hair. this one's my favourite so far...
for the past week i've been unable to control what i say. this has to be the worst feeling in the world. i'm so frustrated, i don't know why i'm feeling like this. i should feel amazing, i've got everything i could possibly want or need, i've just been accepted into Edge Hill to do Journalism, i should be so excited i'll end up exploding; this is what i've always wanted to do and now i'm getting a second chance at it, and all i can do is moanmoanmoan, moanypants.
maybe i need a holiday, or atleast three day's of sleep in one go. i'll try it when i get home from work, maybe then i'll feel more like myself again.
We all want something to hold in the night We don't care if it hurts or we're holding too tight (L)
at last, my pc is fixed and back to normal :) as sad as it sounds, i was pretty lost without it; i couldn't stay up until stupid hours, playing bejewelled or watching movies, all my photos and all my favourite songs were "trapped" as it were. but it's all gravy now. getting my ipod back from Fearnsy's was also quite a relief for sad, materialistic reasons. it's been horrible having to listen to the dullest people on this planet argue with their nans down the phone or listen to how some child is "gonna do a wee-wee on the seat". once i have nothing else to listen to, everyone's topics of discussion become very mundane, so now when i sit on the train, happily bopping away, i'll no doubt be surrounded by the weirdest, most interesting conversations ever heard. and they won't be heard by me.
okay, i don't like realising just how materialistic i sound, especially from the above paragraphs, sort it outtt.
went to town with Hannah last night, it turned out to be the most awesome night i've had in such a long time. we met Alex, Tom and dunny in Scream, went straight the K. when we've done this in the past it hasn't usually turned out to be that amazing; we've always had fun but last night was ridiculous :) met up with Jack, Aarron and that, saw Sian and Jade aswell. i just had so much fun it was unbelievable.
annd, i've just been sat downstairs watching Justin Lee Collins become a Luchador (hilarious!) with the smallest ball of fur padding about in my lap. it is seriously the cutest kitten i've ever laid eyes on, only six weeks old. so now i'm once again broody for a cat, as Carys would say. think i'll hafta wait until i get my own place to get a teeny tiny kitty incase Hippy gobbles it up or sits on it.
my facking computer's still broken but i just use nicky's laptop until the wee hours of the morning while she's fast asleep. i'm worried that i'll lose all the music i've got on my pc, there's literally thousands of songs i don't want to lose. and just to add salt to the wound all of my photos are on there too; i knew i should have saved them onto a pen or something but i just don't think. again i've got thousands of hilarious and strange photos i've taken on there that i would be devastated if i lose.
i'm still freaked out that i bought michael jackson's greatest hits album the morning he died, before it even happened. jack said i was a jinx, that didn't exactly help me so i am now wary of what i purchase on cd. with that in mind i may pop off down the shops and get la roux's album, cross my fingers and hope for the best.
probably a tad late in giving them a good listen, but who cares - i am officially in love with florence and the machine. her voice is so haunting and she's awesome, i'm dying to see them live.
right now this laptop's burning my legs through the pillow and my eyes are finally trying to shut against my will, so this is goodbye for now...
i definitely have too much time on my hands since finishing my exams, which was only a couple of days ago, but still. i had the nicest time at jack's last night and today, it was just so relaxed, we watched yes man which is hi-larious, the mighty boosh and he taught me wrestling moves. i am crap beyond belief but it's still funny.
Tears, Tiaras and Transexuals has just finished. it was really interesting, considering my dad came home from the pub halfway through the programme and asked why i was looking at ladies in bikinis :')
this is a pretty pointless blog, but i hardly update it since my computer broke, so i get on our nicky's laptop whenever i can.
i'm so forgetfull these days, simple things like letting the dog back in when it starts raining, or remembering to wash my facemask off and forgetting to do so, it therefore stays on my face for about 40 minutes until my mum asks why my face is purple. it makes me feel old too, even though that's a big fat lie, but i'm not even in uni yet so i feel like i've done nothing with my life so far. bad times.
on the other hand, here are some photos of my night out with alex. we had an awesome time and i was ridiculously drunk and argued with some dude then he wanted to kick me sdown some stairs. i also ate a massive maccies on the way home and got the hiccups stumbling up to my room.
no idea why, but lately i've been snapping and lashing out at stupid, unnecessary things. for instance, i've been staying at jack's alot this easter, but for the stupidest reasons i've been getting stroppy and in a mood with him, which then turns the day abit sour. i'd love to know why i do this, i really think it's genetic or something cos i can't control when it happens, like this morning, he was going to get his breakfast and i was still in bed, wanting more sleep as always. jack pulls the covers off me and starts messing about, but i flip and start moaning, 'oh my god whyyy did you pull the covers off me? i don't even want any breakfast, meh meh meh' i also storm up the stairs to do my makeup, but then i go in a little happy mood for maybe an hour or so, but then something so small just turns me again. i feel like jekyl and hyde, it's really not doing me any favours.
i'm pretty aware that it's unlikely anybody's going to read this, but i just feel better writing this out, again no idea why.
anyway, i need to wash this facemask off, the smell of tea tree's turning my tummy.
papa roach gig tomorrow, soo excited i've never seen them live and even though they're playing Download i'm just really looking forward to seeing them on their own :D
